Hiding From God = False Repentance

God knows it all. There is nothing God does not see. Why is it we continue to justify our wrong doing at times even though we know God is aware of what is we got going on. When we try to hide stuff from God it can pull us deeper in the wrong direction and farther away from our destiny.

There are several reasons we do this and most of them are the result of a life struggle or pain we are in. When we know we can go to God with our struggles and pain that is when we get solutions instead of staying in the struggle. Wouldn't it be better to do our part and then let God fight for us.

When I was doing some serious hiding from God I would often wonder why I wasn't seeing God intervening on my behalf, or why everything seemed harder, or why I couldn't seem to get close to God as if there was something in my way. The thing is God was intervening on my behalf. He protected me and kept me from worse destruction. I learned a lot in those times. I became more gracious, forgiving, and loving. Yeah, I'm a work in progress. I have God's promise that when He starts a work in someone He finishes it to completion. During these times of hiding, I would pray and it seemed harder to contact God. Like a roadblock of some kind. It was only when I found true repentance and understood the meaning that I again, felt that close connection with God. It was then, that He let me know how important relationship is. How awesome it is to be friends with God. How much He loves us and wants us to succeed. Even more than we want to succeed for ourselves. God desires us to have all the keys the Kingdom has to offer.

When I would ask forgiveness I can't say I really meant it during those times of running. It appeared I meant it on the surface or would lie to others. However, in the deepest part of my heart I had enjoyed the sin. Even though I wanted to be close to God, I couldn't seem to find my heart in an honest place. A wise pastor told me during this time that I needed to have a repentant heart like David. I didn't know what that meant until it hit me so hard one day I collapsed. The pastor told me to ask God for a repentant heart so that I could have a breakthrough and feel closer and more in tune with God then before. See, God's love and grace is awesome. When He meets you right where you are at, He can then begin to move in your life in powerful ways. Not waiting for perfection, but looking forward to you being perfected in Him.

So, how is it that we come to this type of repentance where we no longer desire that sin or have enough strength from God to not do it again? Well, you can still run. Just, run to God not away from Him. You have to get down and dirty with God. Tell Him exactly how it is and that you want to be different. Share with Him the battle you are facing and that you want to be what He has planned for you and not fall away to mediocrity in a World where it is hard to find true fulfillment. The key is getting real (down and dirty). For instance, "God, I like to drink, I like going out with my friends and sometimes it is hard not to be influenced by them. I do have fun and know that you, God have better plans for me. This is a tough battle. So, God give me a repentant heart like you servant David and lead me into my destiny and the fullness of you. Replace the desires to drink and party with desires for you. Show me how cool you are and what fun I can have being an influencer instead of being influenced. Show what true brotherhood and friendship is in the Faith, where I can get fed and ministered to as well as minister. " When you talk to God like your friend and keep it real. He can meet you right where you are at and change you. Giving you all the desires He created you for. As you start to be filled with the things of God you become a beacon of light and your life starts to feel a purpose and fullness you never knew before. Like (surprise) you were destined for it.

Stop hiding from God and stop having to say you are sorry a million times. Let God fill your heart with love and meet you right where you are at.

True Repentance = Close friendship with God.